emo muchhh.

2007-08-20

noone uses diaryland anymore. :( the in crowd uses eljay and the artycool people use wordpress and jeannette uses diaryland. :)

i don't update because (thankfully) i don't have things to rant about. or actually, maybe it's because i find people to rant about things to instead of telling it to a, well, er, typing it into a box.

but back to a time when ranting into boxes was what i did daily, i came up with this. over a year ago, about the time a couple of weeks before my prelims. a rather stressing time, which some people are going through right now. so to show you you're not alone, here goes:

"there is no way i'm going to make it to the end of this year in one piece. i am a wreck. i do not admit it, i do not look it and i most certainly do not act it. BUT I AM. because every night, when i am alone, i sit at my desk and cry feeling sorry for myself."

"I HAVE NOONE TO TALK TO. EVERYONE HAS UP AND LEFT AND MOVED ON. where are you? the one who got attached and then never talked to me again? where are you? the one who i thought knew to love but did not love back? where are you? the one who gave me hope but then disappeared when i needed someone to talk to the most? i HATE appearing like this. i hate appearing needy. but i AM. it's who i am. it's who i've always tried to not be, but in the end, i still am and i don't need to change it. i just need to accept it. i cannot accept it that people can move on and forget that they had a friend. once."

-Monday, August 14, 2006

WOW. emo much? i don't even recall writing this! but i did. and so there, this is what the 'A' Levels do to you. the government should take note. i mean look at me, i'm usually so happy. :D

eh, don't forget, still much visit.