why do some people do, and some people don't?

2006-08-04

i am violent. who knew. i throw things when i am angry. and i can't seem to not do it. it relieves ALOT of stress really. except when i come out of the bathroom/bedroom/from under the bed, i have to pick up everything and i don't really like doing that.

yes, i cry under my bed, because there happens to be a mattress under there. it's very nice because it's small and dark and makes me feel like i can cry alone. one downside is that i can't turn over.

i cry alot. it's therapeutic really, relieves all the pent-up emotion. but after that my eyes get really puffy and tired, not glam at all. and worse of all, i can't keep my eyes open to study. either way, anger is usually the primary emotion that causes my tear ducts to work. true, i cry when i'm sad too, like watching lilo and stitch. but when i'm angry and frustrated, then i REALLY REALLY cry - full out, yell-into-pillow crying. cleanses the soul.

back to throwing things. i know i shouldn't. but i do. it's probably not the most mature reaction, but it helps. alot of buts here. i don't know what i'm trying to say. i think i'm trying to work out why i throw things. MUST. STOP. FLINGING. THINGS. AROUND. noone will love you anymore.